thinking

heard this song one of my favorites from Neil Diamond and it got me thinking

 

these lyrics

Where I am, what I am
What I believe in
Holly holy
Holly holy dream

make me think who am i sindee or the male me

as sindee i am kind gentle caring and living to serve others

in male mode i can be demanding self centered and everyone is ok with that

when in male mode i am try to be kind caring , and serving and then i am considered weak

But i love to serve i love to wear dresses , heels and women’s clothes yet i hide in the closet 75 % of the time. My wife after realizing i wasn’t finished cross dressing left after 43 years of marriage. She doesn’t

love me as a maid ,Her servant thinks of me as a weak male not Her hubby who loves Her. She said if i loved her i wouldn’t wear women’s clothes and i would tell Her what to do and when to do it. but that’s not me.

so life will go on She has filled for divorce wanting it all and leaving me with nothing so the lawyers will fight it our and hopefully, sindee will be happy when this is over.

so for now i love these photos of sindee helps me remember good times

humbly

ss

taking out da trash

so the other day Thursday i took a couple of pics while my Granddaddy was napping.

i was babbysitting and enjoying and needed to take out the trash. my neighbor and i talked outside over the fence. He never said anything about the heels i was wearing or the leggings pr the pink top.  hmm maybe i’m more natural then i think.

here’s the pics

i didn’t put a coat on thought it was a quick run out and back in

Have a great day

humbly

ss