Good Day Sexy Friends and Followers,
Well, Mistress Kate has kept me busy and offline. She is aware that i miss reading the adventures of others. So little by little i have gotten to reading and catching up abit. There were over 5000 messages in queue.
Mistress was surprised that i read and was such a voyeur. She is allowing me(thankfully) to catch up. For the beginning, She was approving my responses and my blog. ok yes still my blog. (approved by MK).
i have been home with daughter ad grandchildren for the last week plus. during which time i have been pondering this “who am i ? what am i? what do i want to be? ” Mistress Kate has asked me that. My answer is i am a piece still in the making. Please mold me. i am but clay in Your hands. surprising this was not enough. So, i think and wonder.
Thank You Nikki, who has me thinking about this again. After Her post (https://loveisafetish.com/i-am-art-2/).
I love crossdressing and being of service. I love being oral. i have no problem serving , cleaning and doing what is asked of me. Seeing a smile on Mistress Kate’s face brings happiness to my life. Seeing Her sitting on the sofa reading a book completely relaxed as either one of her dogs or myself sitting next to Her in the doggy bed. The dogs love me so from time to time, usually after mt chores are done, they will allow me the pleasure of their doggy bed. These make me happy. Sir A is not at the house but every other weekend. For me , i please Him to make MK happy. He won’t read this but again MK. Has approved this.
i will follow Her to the ends of the earth. but i still desire/need my family time. My daughter and granddaughters i love them and like to be with them even if in total male mode. I still clean house and pick up after them. But for my daughter, Her hubby and granddaughters, i hide my sindee side. At 67, it is my decision and i know from how my daughter was raised how She would react. No Thanks to my ex, Her mother. Although, i worshipped my ex and would do anything for her, she hated the thought that i was bi and liked to cross-dress. Which is why after all the girls graduated college and got married, She filed for a divorce. She never told our children and asked ok demanded that i do not tell them. Part of the divorce agreement , although a verbal part between us.
My Christian family (brother a Baptist Mister, sister a missionary) would not or could not tolerate this in any way. Although, if they thought about how i act, they might be able to figure it out. But being closed minded about the LBGTQIA community they never will. I sometimes think and wish i came out when i was younger and didn’t really care. But i did what most hippie, football players, fun loving males were “supposed” to do. I played around and eventually married the head blonde beautiful cheerleader whose daddy was a minister. Now i am trying to find balance between the 2 worlds i live in.
Thank You Mistress Kate for helping and being my Mistress and yes i know this dosen’t answer questions. But let’s you know exactly where my head is at. i would be very lonely without You, Sir A, and your friends.
THANK YOU THANK YOU Mistress Kate.
PS Mistress Kate really enjoys my friend’s Lave Shae blog (https://slaveshae.wordpress.com/)
Peace and Love
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