II take my 87 year-old blind Aunt to church , whenever i can. Last Sunday, while preaching on the Lord’s Prayer, the Minister used this phrase “There is Freedom in Dependence”. My mind went straight to my submissive side. Yes being a slave submissive to Mistress Kate. i am deponent on Her for many decisions i don’t have to make. Things i just do to please Her and Sir. i serve and give them my best. i have chosen this and they have chosen me. i go with them and follow and serve. i have been reading blogs by girlieboy69(https://girlieboy69.com/)and Slave Shae(https://slaveshae.wordpress.com/) both much younger then i and am enjoying there boldness and willing to tell their stories. I also yearn for D/s to be more accepting. So that Mistress and Sir could proudly walk down the street with me a step behind them collared and on a leash. And me being proud to be theirs. Oh well maybe in a few more generations that will happen. Society norms change. It is just hard waiting for those changes and acceptance. Here’s a pic of my new collar a little more fem than my old one. Mistress and Sir like the old one better. But we switch back and forth. The old one is heavier and i enjoy that as i feel it more. That feeling of being owned, controlled and yet oh so FREE !!
Sight i am very visual, like most males. When i first saw Her as She entered my office, i was mesmerized, her She walked in 5′ 10′ in a Police uniform, strawberry blonde hair pulled back into a pony tail. Beautiful blue eyes. beautiful skin. i had to be professional and stay professional. the interview went well. She is well read and didn’t take shit from anybody. Made for a perfect Secretary at least for me. 12 years of seeing Her professionally and keeping it professional. i met Her Hubby(Sir) at numerous work parties of how i loved Her long legs and Her beauty. shortly, after my divorce, i got the unexpected call from Her. i met Her dressed in drab mode, She was wearing shorts, Her hair flowing just a beautiful sight. After a talk, and a few more lunches, i became Hers and HIs.
Sound Oh to hear Her moan, when She cums muffled as it may be with Her lovely thighs squeezing my head. A sound i long for. Its been over a month since we have been together. Of course , i do love Her voice when She praises for doing a good job. Een when its just for putting the dishes away or folding their clothes after doing the laundry.
Taste She just tastes good and when Her and Sir have enjoyed each other. Tasting Her on Him and then all the juices on Her thighs and lips. Not sure how to describe but better than Finger lickn good
Touch It all starts with how soft Her skin is . A simple massage with oil strawberry is my favorite as it also tastes good on Her. Every day after Her shower sometimes i get to lather Her other times i just sit outside the shower door with a towel to dry Her off. Then for me the excitement of rubbing lotion on Her feet , legs, back, arms, and tummy. She loves a toe and finger massages. She knows how it drives me crazy when all She allows is a toe and foot rub or hand and finger rub.
Scent i never noticed a scent from Her all the years , we worked together. But now that i spend time with Her there is the Strawberry cream. the vanilla cream that sends a lovely aroma. And then the smell i really enjoy, Her lovely juice i love it when it is in my goatee. She sometimes lets me sleep with that scent. Strangely, no wet dreams maybe because i am too tired and just fall into a heavenly deep slepp.
There were some items removed from what i originally Sent Mistress Kate.
I had commented on my collar and how it makes me feel. It comes on and off way to often because of my vanilla life and also because of Mistress and Sir’s vanilla life. Attached is a photo i sent recently to Mistress Kate, telling Her i missed Her and i had Her collar on.
At the of Blue Bloods today, Frank Reagan(father) asks Jamie (his son) ” at dinner last Sunday, you were the only one who didn’t say what he wanted to be when you grew up?’
This got me thinking, when is was younger whenever someone ask me that my answer was always happy and rich. They would usually ask but doing what and where you get rich ? My answer was i will work hard and invest well. so really i never did give an answer someone was looking to get.
So here i sit at the age of 67 divorced after 42 years of marriage with 3 grown and beautiful daughters and 10 grandchildren and one great grandson. living with my youngest daughter, her hubby, and 4 granddaughters. i have a Mistress that i serve and can cross-dress and really just be me slave sindee. Happy yes but when i spend too much time ( 5 days 10 days 30 days) either living full time with my Mistress and Her Hubby or my family, i feel like i am missing something and i am not as happy as i should be.
I have been running a successful youth soccer program as a volunteer for 12 years. Took it from 350 players in one park to 800 players in 2 parks. I am a successful soccer coach for High school girls.
I help care for a blind 87 year old Aunt.
All wonderful things to be glad and make me happy but yet i feel like something is missing. i spoke on this with Mistress Kate and Sir. Mistress Kate asked when are you the happiest? i thought for a moment or 2. My answer was pretty much the answer in https://sindeejson.wordpress.com/2022/03/30/tmi-tuesday-march-29-2022/. Laying with my head on Her bare thigh after She has patted me on my head telling me good job. i am happy feeling like i am in heaven. The other time when i have a feeling that close is when the 1-year-old Granddaughter falls asleep on my shoulder.
I have enough money and don’t really care about much else but would want to be able to move back and forth between those 2 times. Mistress Kate just thinks sometimes i am just to weird and told me that’s why i love you. It just about sent to to another level when She said that in front of Sir. Sir smiled and said ” you know sindee i love you too, come here for a hold you silly one. “
So i still don’t know what i want to be when i grow up. i do tell folks i am living until i am120. So who knows maybe i will be something when i grow up. But for now i am happy and living good. Thank full for that and good health.
Upgrade your happiness– play TMI Tuesday, a simple pleasure in life.
1. Tell us your top two simple pleasures.
a. Mistress Kate knows how true this is going down on Her. Kissing Her thighs working my way to Her orgasm and feeling Her lovely thighs squeeze my head so that i can’t hear anything but feel Her explosion on my tongue.
b. in stark contrast having my 1-year-old granddaughter hug me with her soft hair under my cheek and feeling her fall into a deep sleep.
2. You are being a offered a day of pleasure but you must choose one of the following to do. Which would you choose? a. Sex b. Watching big sports match/game c. Fun times with good friends
Fun times with friends that end in a special night of me serving them all.
3. The sun shining through your window in the morning–annoyance or pleasure?
Pleasure the sun on my face even thru a window is energy being absorbed into my body
4. If you uttered the words “pleasure me” to your lover, what would you want to happen?
i think first She would point to the ground and say worship me from the toes up. I will tell you when can stop
5. Tell us one thing you were most grateful for last week?
hmm i guess that i made it thru a real rough time coming down from the anesthesia following a procedure. i had the shakes and was freezing for about 2 hours before i took some cbd to fall asleep. woke up fine thankfully
Bonus: What is the last thing you crossed of your bucket list?
i have never made a bucket list.
Special bonus question–one of life’s mysteries: Are fig newtons cookies or bars? (thelatephoenix wants to know)
no it’s a fruit snack cookies are pleasurable and usually have chocolate in them
was a cheat when i was younger and dumb. Now i realize a game is a game for FUN. So i just try to enjoy win or lose. Good Sportsmanship.
2. Which board game are you unbeatable?
i don’t think i am unbeatable in anything. There is always someone better at that one thing. I try to stay well rounded and be good at many. Master at nothing. although, some think i am a good soccer coach. High School (19U) Girls Club.
3. Which mythological creature would be your worst roommate?
not into mythology. so any of them would not be good for me.
4. Give us a three song playlist. You can link to the songs if you wish.
my play list varies from day to day
1. 4 Jacks and a Jill “Master Jack”
2. ladysmith black mambazo homeless live
3.”The Sound of Silence” by Simon & Garfunkel from The Concert in Central Park
4.Song: Margaritaville Artist: Jimmy Buffett
5. Bob Marley – Everything’s Gonna Be Alright
5. What famous person have you met or been within a few feet of (music concerts and book signings do not count).
Several football players Gale Sayers , Walter Payton. Many more as i played semi pro as a wide receiver. But those 2 stand out as being kind gentleman and nice to a punk kid.
Bonus: Is a hot dog a sandwich?
No a Hot Dog is A Hot Dog just like a burger is a burger. Peanut Butter and Jelly is a sandwich. two pieces of bread and something in between is a sandwich. Now here’s a Hot Dog the right way Chicago Style ( i am a Chicagoan)
How to play TMI Tuesday: Copy the above TMI Tuesday questions to your webspace (i.e., a blog). Answer the questions there, then leave a comment below, on this blog post, so we’ll all know where to read your responses. Please don’t forget to link to tmituesdayblog from your website!
Well, Mistress Kate has kept me busy and offline. She is aware that i miss reading the adventures of others. So little by little i have gotten to reading and catching up abit. There were over 5000 messages in queue.
Mistress was surprised that i read and was such a voyeur. She is allowing me(thankfully) to catch up. For the beginning, She was approving my responses and my blog. ok yes still my blog. (approved by MK).
i have been home with daughter ad grandchildren for the last week plus. during which time i have been pondering this “who am i ? what am i? what do i want to be? ” Mistress Kate has asked me that. My answer is i am a piece still in the making. Please mold me. i am but clay in Your hands. surprising this was not enough. So, i think and wonder.
I love crossdressing and being of service. I love being oral. i have no problem serving , cleaning and doing what is asked of me. Seeing a smile on Mistress Kate’s face brings happiness to my life. Seeing Her sitting on the sofa reading a book completely relaxed as either one of her dogs or myself sitting next to Her in the doggy bed. The dogs love me so from time to time, usually after mt chores are done, they will allow me the pleasure of their doggy bed. These make me happy. Sir A is not at the house but every other weekend. For me , i please Him to make MK happy. He won’t read this but again MK. Has approved this.
i will follow Her to the ends of the earth. but i still desire/need my family time. My daughter and granddaughters i love them and like to be with them even if in total male mode. I still clean house and pick up after them. But for my daughter, Her hubby and granddaughters, i hide my sindee side. At 67, it is my decision and i know from how my daughter was raised how She would react. No Thanks to my ex, Her mother. Although, i worshipped my ex and would do anything for her, she hated the thought that i was bi and liked to cross-dress. Which is why after all the girls graduated college and got married, She filed for a divorce. She never told our children and asked ok demanded that i do not tell them. Part of the divorce agreement , although a verbal part between us.
My Christian family (brother a Baptist Mister, sister a missionary) would not or could not tolerate this in any way. Although, if they thought about how i act, they might be able to figure it out. But being closed minded about the LBGTQIA community they never will. I sometimes think and wish i came out when i was younger and didn’t really care. But i did what most hippie, football players, fun loving males were “supposed” to do. I played around and eventually married the head blonde beautiful cheerleader whose daddy was a minister. Now i am trying to find balance between the 2 worlds i live in.
Thank You Mistress Kate for helping and being my Mistress and yes i know this dosen’t answer questions. But let’s you know exactly where my head is at. i would be very lonely without You, Sir A, and your friends.
I can’t believe how long it has been since i blogged and read emails.
I will explain as i can and that i am allowed. Mistress Kate and Sir have requested that i stay offline except for my twitter and instagram accounts and whenever i am online. One must be present. Mistress Kate will approve this writing. I have been in good health and taking care of my soccer obligations but mostly being the housemaid and companion for Mistress Kate and Sir when He is here. He resides about 5 hours from us. I have spent most of my summer up with Mistress Kate. She is doing well and i enjoy life. I go home for soccer stuff and family times.
i cannot give many details of life up North with Mistress Kate other then i am keeping things in order and taking care of Her needs and desires. There have been no new photos of me except when i went to Mexico for the month of December with my Son – in laws Parents. to help them out with some things at their house. i was proud of myself for not using the interent and checking sindee’s mail. i was rewarded by Mistress Kate when i came back. (Thank You MK)
Mistress Kate is going to allow me (Thankfully) to open my eamil and return some messages and read some blogs. i look forward to catching up with many of you.
Thank you for understanding.
To those bloggers i normally respond to and read — i truly miss you and will do my best to catch up.
it’s been boring mundane few weeks so much so that i haven’t even waanted to go online. i currentky have over 800 unread emails here. At least i have kept up with the soccer stuff on myother account. We have over 500 players from 5 to 14 playing following some strict protocols. i’m happy for those parents and players, But the meetings and getting everyone on board — Yeech. Sindee has been deep in the closet sometimes i don’t think she is even around. But then i get a call from Mistress Kate out of the blue. She must have known i was just existing. She brighten my day and life. She wants to see me as does Her sexy friends. Noe i just have to figure our how soon i can make the trip.
To those bloggers i normally respond to and read — i truly miss you and will do my best to catch up.
so Happy trails to you all
be safe and sexy
Peace N Love
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