here m melancholy

Good Day Sexy Friends and Followers,

just noticed my last blog was min November. so many things have come and gone. So here i am tonite along in a hotel room a day of teaching soccer management classe ove. Should be getting sleep or ready for the classes instead thinking about priorites in my life. Missing Mistress Kate missing my grandchildren feeling alone wondering why – why anything what really matters. listening to my favorites . and almg vomr Eddie Brickell singing “What i am” (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tDl3bdE3Y)( rmemebering wheni girst heard jer sing it. i was smitten my her and the song. She is beautiful . These words :

“i’m not aware of too many things
I know what I know, if you know what I mean
Doo doo, yeah

Choke me in the shallow waters
Before I get too deep
What I am is what I am
Are you what you are or what?

so sytong and powerful to me how often i just shot to those around i am what i am deal with it.

who are you? Do you know? well i do know who i am and thanks to Mistress Kate and Sir – i have a refuge and a place where i get to be slave sindee. Happy and sencure knowing that ia mplrasing themwith my service. i should be happy but i want more i want to be a great caring loving Grandfather and Great grandfather and not hiding my love of waering women’s clothing amd being my true self.

well off to sleep

Be safe Enjoy life as it comes to You

Peace N Love

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ss

TMI Tuesday: November 15, 2022

Good Day Sexy Friends and Followers,

hopefully, better late then never.

1. Defend your splurge –
Tell us why you bought that thing — we won’t judge.

My last spluge was for some girlie jewelry fake nose rings. Because i deserve it i don’t often get things for myself but the most expensive is my new hat from Mexico .

2. What is one thing you always take from a hotel room?

Now that i am older nothing. but when i was younger and i still have some Towels.

3. What is one thing in your pantry you know you keep for too long?

nothing i don’t have a pantry. There is one in the house but i only buy cookies and candy, which are stored next to my bed in a cabinet.

4. Which game show sums up your life?
a. Jeopardy
b. Family Feud
c. The Price is Right
d. The Dating Game

This is a tough one. maybe The Price is Right since i am always looking for a great deal as good deals aren’t really goos until they become GREAT.

5. When all is said and done, will you have said more than you have done?

in my later years i have been of little words. but throuhout the earlier times and as a project manager i was outspoken in order to get things done. And as i instruct management classes i realize i can speak for an hour to and hour and half. So bottom line the mouth wins. i have accomplished alot but words out number the deeds. Maybe i am wrong. so i live with this though:

Peace N Love

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ss

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a break in Mexico

Good Day Sexy Friends and Followers,

well summer is over and i definitely needed a break from life with the exception of being with Mistress and Sir. i find myself in Mexico, 5 years later after my first visit. This is visit 7 with my sil Mother and Father. The day after celebrating The Day of The Dead(el Día de los Muertos). A wonderful time of past memerioes of loved ones shared with friends and family. i am very lucky that i am considered family in this small loving town of 900 or so. Small town rich in love for each other.

Mistress Kate has allowed this and approved. My time with them is scared to them both so i shall abide in hteir wishes.

So here i am enjoying the celebrations at the cementary, when an individual tell me i am sitting like a girl with prettty nails. i thanked him. His English was very shakey. Sil’s Mother said he was trying to pick a fight by saying i was gay. When i just smiled at him and took it as a compliement, he was angered and left. They do not know i am bisexual or of any of my kinks.

A blooger friend Slave Shea(https://slaveshae.wordpress.com/2022/11/02/lunch-with-maria/) recently wrote about a conversation she had with a vanila friend. She wrote somethings i found are very true about submission and being submissive. She wrote this which i totaly understand and couldn’t have found a better way to state ” being submissive is actually inborn, deeply interwoven into who we are. But for others, submissiveness is just one desire among many, optional and occasional” She stated “Going in to any submissive relationship, you can define for yourself what it should be and not be. You can specify limits. And there are different types of slavery, not all being sexual or physical.” Could not be more true.

I hope and trust your November will be filled with fun and wonderful times. Thank You for reading

Be safe Enjoy life as it comes to You

Peace N Love

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Update long summer

Good Day Sexy Friends and Followers,

Not sure where to start been busy with new room addition 12 x 16 with deck. Taking longer then expected. spent time up north with Mistress and Sir. New soccer season started with more players then anticpated which caused more coach classes to be taught. My co instructor and my self taught over 100 new cocahes over 11 clubs.

Now my time with Mistress was intense as i served beer and wine for a fund raiser. One of their close friends is going on a Honor Flight, i raised over $400 in tips. Mistress won a AR-15. She is an ex Police Officer and loves target practising and being ready for the apocalpse. So at least when and if it comes, She will protech me and Sir. Niether Him or i are fans of guns. Let alone weapons of mass destruction. But it makes Her happy and that is always my main focus.

Sexually, thinga have been slow. Not much to write about. I do enjoy my times with them but the summer has been about doing things and leaving sexy aside. Sadly. She did get me a new collar and we switch between the thick and thin one.

Hope everyone is doing well.

Be safe Enjoy life as it comes to You

Peace N Love

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FREEDON IS IN DEPENDANCE

II take my 87 year-old blind Aunt to church , whenever i can. Last Sunday, while preaching on the Lord’s Prayer, the Minister used this phrase “There is Freedom in Dependence”. My mind went straight to my submissive side. Yes being a slave submissive to Mistress Kate. i am deponent on Her for many decisions i don’t have to make. Things i just do to please Her and Sir. i serve and give them my best. i have chosen this and they have chosen me. i go with them and follow and serve. i have been reading blogs by girlieboy69(https://girlieboy69.com/)and Slave Shae(https://slaveshae.wordpress.com/) both much younger then i and am enjoying there boldness and willing to tell their stories. I also yearn for D/s to be more accepting. So that Mistress and Sir could proudly walk down the street with me a step behind them collared and on a leash. And me being proud to be theirs. Oh well maybe in a few more generations that will happen. Society norms change. It is just hard waiting for those changes and acceptance. Here’s a pic of my new collar a little more fem than my old one. Mistress and Sir like the old one better. But we switch back and forth. The old one is heavier and i enjoy that as i feel it more. That feeling of being owned, controlled and yet oh so FREE !!

Peace N Love

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My 5 Senses & Mistress Kate

Good Day Sexy Friends and Followers,

A fellow blogger Car Sutra wrote a blog about “Using All Five Senses During Sex: Sight, Sound, Taste, Touch & Scent” (https://carasutra.com/2022/04/using-all-five-senses-during-sex-sight-sound-taste-touch-scent/). wonderful read. i though about Mistress Kate although i haven’t ever had sex(intercourse) with Her. i have loved and worshipped Her body in a very sexual way. This blog post has been approved by Mistress Kate. Thank You Mistress.

• Sight i am very visual, like most males. When i first saw Her as She entered my office, i was mesmerized, her She walked in 5′ 10′ in a Police uniform, strawberry blonde hair pulled back into a pony tail. Beautiful blue eyes. beautiful skin. i had to be professional and stay professional. the interview went well. She is well read and didn’t take shit from anybody. Made for a perfect Secretary at least for me. 12 years of seeing Her professionally and keeping it professional. i met Her Hubby(Sir) at numerous work parties of how i loved Her long legs and Her beauty. shortly, after my divorce, i got the unexpected call from Her. i met Her dressed in drab mode, She was wearing shorts, Her hair flowing just a beautiful sight. After a talk, and a few more lunches, i became Hers and HIs.
• Sound Oh to hear Her moan, when She cums muffled as it may be with Her lovely thighs squeezing my head. A sound i long for. Its been over a month since we have been together. Of course , i do love Her voice when She praises for doing a good job. Een when its just for putting the dishes away or folding their clothes after doing the laundry.
• Taste She just tastes good and when Her and Sir have enjoyed each other. Tasting Her on Him and then all the juices on Her thighs and lips. Not sure how to describe but better than Finger lickn good
• Touch It all starts with how soft Her skin is . A simple massage with oil strawberry is my favorite as it also tastes good on Her. Every day after Her shower sometimes i get to lather Her other times i just sit outside the shower door with a towel to dry Her off. Then for me the excitement of rubbing lotion on Her feet , legs, back, arms, and tummy. She loves a toe and finger massages. She knows how it drives me crazy when all She allows is a toe and foot rub or hand and finger rub.
• Scent i never noticed a scent from Her all the years , we worked together. But now that i spend time with Her there is the Strawberry cream. the vanilla cream that sends a lovely aroma. And then the smell i really enjoy, Her lovely juice i love it when it is in my goatee. She sometimes lets me sleep with that scent. Strangely, no wet dreams maybe because i am too tired and just fall into a heavenly deep slepp.

There were some items removed from what i originally Sent Mistress Kate.

Another blogger i follow is Kinky with a Twist by Helen a recent blog was about collars. Here’s the link https://kinkywithatwist.com/2022/04/09/are-collars-essential-in-bdsm

I had commented on my collar and how it makes me feel. It comes on and off way to often because of my vanilla life and also because of Mistress and Sir’s vanilla life. Attached is a photo i sent recently to Mistress Kate, telling Her i missed Her and i had Her collar on.

Peace N Love

Humbly submitted

ss

love this photo and your hair is just as lovely as your smile

Trust and Believe In The Unseen

Sleeping, naked in a big ass hotel bed by yourself should be the best alone feeling, that you can endure self-love because you are embracing peace of mind and self-control on every edge of your beautiful body. -Christianna

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What do i want to be when i grow up?

Good Day Sexy Friends and Followers,

At the of Blue Bloods today, Frank Reagan(father) asks Jamie (his son) ” at dinner last Sunday, you were the only one who didn’t say what he wanted to be when you grew up?’

This got me thinking, when is was younger whenever someone ask me that my answer was always happy and rich. They would usually ask but doing what and where you get rich ? My answer was i will work hard and invest well. so really i never did give an answer someone was looking to get.

So here i sit at the age of 67 divorced after 42 years of marriage with 3 grown and beautiful daughters and 10 grandchildren and one great grandson. living with my youngest daughter, her hubby, and 4 granddaughters. i have a Mistress that i serve and can cross-dress and really just be me slave sindee. Happy yes but when i spend too much time ( 5 days 10 days 30 days) either living full time with my Mistress and Her Hubby or my family, i feel like i am missing something and i am not as happy as i should be.

I have been running a successful youth soccer program as a volunteer for 12 years. Took it from 350 players in one park to 800 players in 2 parks. I am a successful soccer coach for High school girls.

I help care for a blind 87 year old Aunt.

All wonderful things to be glad and make me happy but yet i feel like something is missing. i spoke on this with Mistress Kate and Sir. Mistress Kate asked when are you the happiest? i thought for a moment or 2. My answer was pretty much the answer in https://sindeejson.wordpress.com/2022/03/30/tmi-tuesday-march-29-2022/. Laying with my head on Her bare thigh after She has patted me on my head telling me good job. i am happy feeling like i am in heaven. The other time when i have a feeling that close is when the 1-year-old Granddaughter falls asleep on my shoulder.

I have enough money and don’t really care about much else but would want to be able to move back and forth between those 2 times. Mistress Kate just thinks sometimes i am just to weird and told me that’s why i love you. It just about sent to to another level when She said that in front of Sir. Sir smiled and said ” you know sindee i love you too, come here for a hold you silly one. “

So i still don’t know what i want to be when i grow up. i do tell folks i am living until i am120. So who knows maybe i will be something when i grow up. But for now i am happy and living good. Thank full for that and good health.

Life goes on and maybe i should have the theme in life of Bobby McFerrin – Don’t Worry Be Happy (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d-diB65scQU)

Hope i didn’t bore anyone just wanted off my chest again.

This post approved by both Mistress Kate and Sir

Peace N Love

humbly submitted

ss

a blast from the past

AT YOUR SERVICE

TMI Tuesday – March 29, 2022

Good Day Sexy friends and followers

Upgrade your happiness– play TMI Tuesday, a simple pleasure in life.

1. Tell us your top two simple pleasures.

a. Mistress Kate knows how true this is going down on Her. Kissing Her thighs working my way to Her orgasm and feeling Her lovely thighs squeeze my head so that i can’t hear anything but feel Her explosion on my tongue.

b. in stark contrast having my 1-year-old granddaughter hug me with her soft hair under my cheek and feeling her fall into a deep sleep.

2. You are being a offered a day of pleasure but you must choose one of the following to do. Which would you choose?
a. Sex
b. Watching big sports match/game
c. Fun times with good friends

Fun times with friends that end in a special night of me serving them all.

3. The sun shining through your window in the morning–annoyance or pleasure?

Pleasure the sun on my face even thru a window is energy being absorbed into my body

4. If you uttered the words “pleasure me” to your lover, what would you want to happen?

i think first She would point to the ground and say worship me from the toes up. I will tell you when can stop

5. Tell us one thing you were most grateful for last week?

hmm i guess that i made it thru a real rough time coming down from the anesthesia following a procedure. i had the shakes and was freezing for about 2 hours before i took some cbd to fall asleep. woke up fine thankfully

Bonus: What is the last thing you crossed of your bucket list?

i have never made a bucket list.

Special bonus question–one of life’s mysteries: Are fig newtons cookies or bars? (thelatephoenix wants to know)

no it’s a fruit snack cookies are pleasurable and usually have chocolate in them

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ss

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Sinful Sunday Week 572

Good Day My Sexy Friends and followers:

I hope i am doing this right. It’s been awhile since i posted for SS.

Pride socks

Happy Sinful Sock Sunday

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